WEDDING!!!

So this has to be quick because I have to go back to school, but I just found out that Tyler and I might be able to start planning our wedding! Its possible that I might be back in Oregon for 2 months early in 2011 and if all goes as planned that means that we would be setting a wedding date for late April 2011! I am so excited I couldn't help but share the news. Nothing is 100% yet (we have another lottery to decide what "tracks" we end up in. This decides what order we do our rotations next year... You know, month 1 Internal medicine, month 2 cardiology and so on), but if I get the track I've listed as my number one choice everything will be set. :) If not, there is still a chance that I can move some things around and still make it work, but we'll just have to wait and see.

Anyway, I guess that's all for now. I just wanted to share the good news!

Just a few thoughts

Well, it's January. January is a love/hate kind of month for me. I love it because my birthday is January 23rd, but I hate it for the same reason. :) I've found that as I get older birthdays become less and less important. This one seems to be exceptionally less important because of the birthday "gifts" I've requested. Don't get me wrong, my family (especially my mom) went WAY overboard with Christmas (as she usually does), and Tyler also got me more than I asked for, but I can't help but feel a little sad that my birthday has been robbed this year. From my parents I'm getting a USMLE test question bank. That will also be my gift from my grandparents. While it is extremely useful, it's not fun. Its interesting how little fun seems to matter when you grow up. I'll also be taking a Pharmacology exam 2 days afterwards, so I'm sure I'll spend a huge chunk of the day studying away! ;-/

I was also thinking earlier today about how I used to think of medicine. The human body was such a wonder to me, something totally beautiful. Now, I don't even have time to think of it that way. There are some days I wonder how a baby can be born without some sort of birth defect and yet it happens everyday... I have memorized more about the body than I would have thought possible and I'm not even done yet. I've been tested sometimes 5 days a week on things that I've memorized. Frankly is absolutely exhausting! It makes me wonder how much of this knowledge it's possible to retain. I wouldn't go so far as to say I've fallen out of love with medicine, I still can't picture myself doing anything else, but I do find myself wondering if people knew what it was like, I mean REALLY knew, would they do it? No wonder there is a shortage of doctors out there.

I guess I'm just sort of venting a little, isn't that what blogs are for? lol. I'm feeling a lot of pressure right now. Board exams are in 6 short months and I'm having some trouble with my stomach again. I wish someone could tell me whats wrong and how to fix it. The dichotomy is interesting, studying to be a doctor and frustrated with future colleagues because they can't seem to fix me. I don't even want a quick fix, I just want an answer. If someone could just tell me what to stop eating, I would do it. I'm feeling pretty well tonight, great by yesterdays standards, but I hardly ate anything all day. I just don't know how long the good feeling will last or how long I can survive on white rice and plain pasta with roasted veggies.

Well Ty is in watching Golden Girls with our little pooch. I guess I should get in there and get some sleep. Maybe tomorrow I'll feel even better than I did today!

Finding Inspiration

I never thought I'd be a blogger. #1 I don't have time and #2 I don't begin to think that people are really interested in what horrible disease I'm studying today, however I do live in Arizona and recently realized that friends and family at home might actually be interested in what I'm doing, saying, or thinking.

I was also inspired to begin a blog by my good friend Mellie. She inspires me frequently, but she recently began a blog and I thought, why not? She has two beautiful kids, a job, and recently started sewing. If she can find the time, so can I. I also think it might be good for me to get my head out of school books and board prep.

A few things you might already know:

I'm engaged to a wonderful man named Tyler. A beautiful person with a huge heart. We met our first year of college in the dorms and became really good friends. We even lived together our second year! 5 years later we were still close friends and decided we'd give a relationship a try. In August of that year he proposed. We've postponed our wedding due to our relocation for my medical education, but are hoping for a date sometime in 2011. In the summer of 2008 we moved to Glendale Arizona (yes, we know, it's hot :) ). We have a pretty apartment that we used to love, but seems to have gone downhill quickly in the last few months. We have been discussing moving to a rental home closer to Ty's work, but I'm not sure I want to move AGAIN! In May of last year Tyler and I decided we were ready to take the next step and start a family. Isabella (a bouncy Boston Terrier puppy) joined us in our home and she was one of the best decision we've made. She brings us a ton of happiness and whenever I need a smile her sweet little face is sure to do the trick.

As you can guess, my life is a tad stressful. I spend most of my free time (which isn't much) hanging out with Ty and Bella. Occasionally we get to go out and spend time with some of our favorite people in Arizona. Other then that you can find me in "the batcave" (my office) and Ty in the kitchen cooking something delicious. We both love Oregon (born and raised), but wont be able to come back for a visit for a while. We're both looking forward to June 2011 when we can return (mostly) for good.

I'm not a great speller (this would be messy if it weren't for spell check!) and I'm not sure I'll be able to blog often, but here it goes I guess!